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Quentin Smith, 23

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i care about house a lot.
and it scares me that he died so close to me. and it scares me even more that i might have died too

maybe i knew, and that's why i -

idk. does dying ever become less terrifying?

yes
you can practice for anything
the three to five seconds before you know you're gone are usually a bitch

is that true or are you just trying to be brave about it

idk I guess I've never been brave about it, but you can get used to being terrified if you know you're gonna come back

I fell out of practice until your "brother" put me back on the horse
what a great guy

he's a cunt, i know.

have you ever killed anyone, q?

i swear to god if you're about to tell me not to knock it till i've tried it, we're done

you saw what i did. do you really think i'd tell you that?

why does it matter if i've killed anyone

well

do you think dying would make me any less shit scared of it

[ christ jem ]

I don't think killing yourself is going to help anything
where are you

i'm with eddie and billy.

i'm not going to kill myself. i'm just thinking out loud

and what are you thinking exactly?

maybe i'd be fine, if i died. maybe it wouldn't be some scary, horrible unknown thing that's always looming?

but i wouldn't do it. i couldn't.

that's why.

why what

okay

jem i think you need to find someone to talk to
maybe get a change of pace
new friends idk

do you see a therapist in town????
lmao

no, but i'm not afraid of talking to my friends about the things that keep me awake

i'm talking to you.

we're not friends

that's why it was always going to be you.

ouch

I'm not trying to be a dick, I'm just being honest
I don't want you to get hurt, but you haven't exactly been a friend to me

Is this about Jem

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