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Quentin Smith, 23

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[pharmacy]

JEM
I'm not worried about Danny hurting me, I know he will, I know what that danger is

I'm worried about YOU hurting me

[medals]

?????

[pharmacy]

you want us to be friends, right? you keep acting like you want us to be friends, but you don't seem to have any idea of what he's done either you don't care enough to find out or you're playing dumb like that's gonna get you off the hook 

either way, how am I supposed to trust you? how can I willfully put myself out there for you knowing I'm gonna get hurt like last night? 

1/2

[medals]

oh

[medals]

i really didn't know he'd done that to you, with the photos.

i care about you, quentin. i care whether you're hurt, or upset, because you've been kind to me, and i'm not trying to hurt you on purpose. i'm not trying to hurt you at all, i don't WANT you to be hurt at all.

i'm not a great person, really. obviously, but i wouldn't hurt you on purpose.

but i care about him too.

[pharmacy]

[ Right. Sure. "I'm sorry if your feelings were hurt" seems like the best he's going to get. ]

alright well, apparently this is a me problem, I should've known there was a risk of feeling shitty, whatever
next time you loan him something, maybe check if he's used it for fucking psychological terrorism? as a favor to me

[medals]

i'm not saying it's a you problem, i'm saying it's obviously a me problem because i don't want to hurt you and i keep doing it

sure. i can do that. sure.

[pharmacy]

if you think it's a YOU problem, what are YOU gonna do about it? don't tell me I need to learn to fight or that I'm allowed to feel my feelings, tell me how you're gonna keep from having to apologize later 

[medals]

i don't know?
what do you want me to do, quentin? i'm listening

i can keep the camera. i can never talk about him again. i could lock him in his cage for a week if you wanted me to, but you need to tell me what to do here

[pharmacy]

okay lets use last night as an object lesson 

anywhere else, with anyone else, if you were throwing a party where you knew that one of your friends had seriously hurt another, what might be 1-3 THINGS you could do to minimize damage 

[medals]

not invite them

[pharmacy]

okay that's one
maybe you forgot in the course of party prep, and both people are already there
what then

[medals]

warn you he's there.

[pharmacy]

yeah
i mean, I figured he would be there, it was your birthday

[ And they're...y'know. ]

but yeah knowing you thought about it would have been nice

[medals]

i can give you a heads up, if there's a next time

[pharmacy]

there's gonna be a next time
Whether it's him and me or some other arrangement of assholes

I know you're in love with him
Don't let that make you blind to the shit he does, jem
He's not gonna stop being who he is, which means he's not gonna stop making things weird for you to navigate

If you want to keep your friends or make new ones, you have to know what he's doing and how you're gonna make up for it with the people he hurts

[medals]

yeah. yeah i know.

okay.

[pharmacy]

okay

get some hair of the dog, the morning after should be part of the party

[medals]

i need a gallon of water and bacon

🎀

[pharmacy]

idk where you're gonna find a gallon of bacon, but if anyone can do it, you can

take it easy, jem