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Quentin Smith, 23

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voice (some time after Eddie's post 12.1.)

[ludomania]

Quentin. You need to reach out to me every day, ok?

I don't want you ending up like Lottie. [ his voice nearly breaks at the name but he manages to keep it together. ]

[pharmacy]

Yeah. Yes. Yes, I will, I--

How could he show us like that? I didn't need to see it.

[ludomania]

He was in a shock. I don't know, the network has been filled with strange things lately-- I tried to warn her. I asked if I could come see her. After how she behaved earlier...

I knew something was off.

[pharmacy]

She's--she was-she's always had more going on than she lets on. I just wish I'd...I wish I'd apologized sooner. Maybe she would have talked to me. One of us could have known.

[ludomania]

Apologized for what?

[ uh oh. ]

[pharmacy]

I-- [ God, this is embarrassing, especially compared to the goings on. ] You remember that night John and House had that orgy? Out in the woods?

[ludomania]

Which one? [ he's starting to lose track of the orgies. ] Yeah? Did something happen?

[pharmacy]

No. Nothing happened, which was--she came over, and we started hooking up, and I--I had to stop it before things got too--

I mean, she was pissed. I've never seen her that mad.

[ludomania]

You rejected her? Why? [ who would ever do that? dude. but also – Quentin and Lottie? together?? ]

That's nothing to apologize for unless you said the wrong thing. [ and god it was so easy to say the wrong thing with her. ]

[pharmacy]

I told her we couldn't sleep together in my apartment. Danny and I--promised each other. No one else. At home.

[ludomania]

[ of course. ]

That wasn't your fault, Quentin. It was Danny trying to control you.

[pharmacy]

Felipe. We both made the same promise. And I invited her over, I kissed her--it's on me.

[ludomania]

[ but it must have been Danny's idea. ]

Okay. Then you'll apologize to her when she comes back.

I want to be there for her. At the castle. [ he eventually adds after a pause. he doesn't know if Lottie even wants him there but she's in no position to stop him. ]

[pharmacy]

...I think that's a good idea. [ Well....give him a beat to think about that and clarify: ] Are you guys good?

[ludomania]

Yeah.

[ for sure for sure for sure for sure for sure for sure. ]

Things were strange after the dream we shared, but she sounded relieved to hear from me. I would have gone to her if I had known for certain that she wanted me in her new place.

[pharmacy]

[ Alright, not at all suspicious. It's just-- ]

You're sure? Do you maybe want some company while you're waiting for her, just to be safe?

[ludomania]

Are you asking because you don't want to go by yourself?

Thank you, Quentin, but I'll go by myself. I need to see her.

[pharmacy]

No, I'm asking because--I just--she's gonna be sensitive when she gets out. Probably. Be careful with her.

[ludomania]

I know how to handle her.

[ flippant. and he's gone. ]