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Quentin Smith, 23

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[poleaxed]

that's why i aint sharing <3

[pharmacy]

okay

I think it kind of IS how people are here
who said this to you?

[poleaxed]

kinda not your business chief

[pharmacy]

you JUST told me this you literally

okay

whatever nvm yes everyone here is gay and annoying about it

[poleaxed]

i told you a lot of people came out to ME
you nosy little fuck

thanks thats what i wanted to know! glad we figured that one out holmes

[drysdale]

I'll give them a try.

[pharmacy]

those you'll just try
no skepticism? no crying about it? you've really settled in fast ig

[drysdale]

[ lol. ]

Sure, because I've never smoked something just to see if it can be smoked.

What's to be skeptical of? You already said you don't know about unintended side effects. I'm not turning into a teetotaler over 10%.

[pharmacy]

alright, badass, come by whenever then 
whenever we're open, I'm not keeping special hours for you 

are you trying to get up or down? I'll build you a pack 

text; early march

[dead_tongue]

Hihihi!

I'm camping. It's miserable and I hate it and I think we might die out here, so before my beautiful corpse is lost forever underground, I need to ask you a favour:

look after our boy Jin Guangyao.



and if he's into feet, just let him jerk off on yours at least once.

[drysdale]

After denying me the VIP treatment? You sure know how to make a guy's head spin.

Let's say up.

[ Can't hurt when you're trying to poke the monster, can it? ]

[pharmacy]

[ jesuschrist that's so much ]

whatyou're not going to die, relax
and relax about jin guangyao he doesnt need me looking after him 

who tf is the "our" in "our boy"? 

[dead_tongue]

oh I might. we're going into the caves and I have a terrible feeling about it.

yes he does. just maybe not physically.

you and Grady and me, obviously. I mean, I'm sort of on the periphery, but I think I still count.

[pharmacy]

on the periphery of what? him and grady? bc that's their thing, you and him are your own thing are you guys a thing? 

[pharmacy]

no VIPs here, comrade
lets just call this your medicine and I'll prepare it for you like I would any other patient

[dead_tongue]

me and Grady? Oh, yeah, he's my boyfriend, I love him madly, I'd do literally anything for him. but that's not relevant!

Jin Guangyao is his other guy! and you're Jin Guangyao's other guy! it's like six degrees of separation or whatever. so that means I can ask you to please look after Jin Guangyao.

[pharmacy]

not you and grady, you and a-yao
or are you just doing literally anything for grady by making sure his assets are all secure??

[dead_tongue]

he's not an asset! oh my gosh, why would you say it like that? that's a horrible thing to say!
but no, he has no idea I'm talking to you.

and no, Jin Guangyao and I are just friends.

I want him to be looked after if something happens to us.
...is that weird?

[pharmacy]

[ It's not an unreasonable ask. Quentin has his own people that he'd like to know are taken care of. Jin Guangyao is so reserved, it's a logical assumption that he doesn't have many people looking out for him. Quentin weighs these knowledges as he tries to answer tactfully. Reminds himself that Iggy's always running his mouth, but he's rarely being malicious.

[ He only has one other touchpoint that feels dependable when it comes to Iggy: what would Kovacs do? He would spell it out, just like he has to do with Quentin. So spell it out. ]

its not weird for you to want that
it feels weird for you to ask about it now

you know i was the one that found jin guangyao when he arrived here
i helped him his first job
he showed up to help me after danny
I was organizing search parties when he got thrown in that well

I know you were overwhelmed then and Grady was out of his head, I know those things, but i dont need you to
i don't need
it feels insulting for you to tell me to look out for him

[dead_tongue]

[The distress that Iggy radiates is pure.]

oh my god Quentin I'm so sorry. I want trying to insult you at all!

I didn't know any of that! I only just found out you were fucking, I didn't know you were close before everything went to shit.

oh my gosh, I'm such a moron, I'm so sorry. I'm just really scared and I don't want anyone I care about to be left alone.

[pharmacy]

it's okay, it's whatever 
we weren't even talking about it with anybody, it's not for other people [ An unkind, possessive part of him murmurs: it's not our anything. He can clock that as childish, though. Everything is ours here. ] I'm just telling you that I've been doing this 

I'm gonna keep doing this

[dead_tongue]

it's not whatever. it's important. I insulted you and I insulted your love and that's a horrible thing for me to have done even accidentally.

I'm sorry. I really didn't know it was a secret.

of course you are. thank you.





so this isn't the time to invite you swimming if we don't die I guess.

[pharmacy]

[ Love is a lot. Such mortification over accidental insult is a lot, especially considering the number of times Iggy's flippant jokes about or casual flirtations with Danny have crawled under Quentin's skin and stayed there for days. But that is for another time, if it's even for saying at all. As with all things Danny, it's sore for even Quentin to touch--and with as wounded as Iggy seems over this, Quentin can't imagine how he'd react to that.

[ He's doing emotional math in head, feeling dour--but the last bit tacked on the end makes him laugh in real space. He has to apologize to Merta. ] 

Iggy, if you don't die, consider beach day something I OWE you 
Or riverbed day idk what we call it here 

Just find the heart and get back

[dead_tongue]

[It's easy to forget that Iggy - outgoing and friendly and always eager to please - is in fact terribly socially awkward. He has no metric by which to judge love and friendship, no real understanding of what isn't appropriate to say until he's trotted blithely across some line. He likes and respects Quentin and he hates that he seems to keep hurting him.

Mentally, he vows to do better. He can be better.]

it'll be fun!

we will. we've got a whole group of spooky people, one of us is bound to find something.

thank you, Quentin. you're the best.

[cacotopia]

what are you a scientist or something